Remind You What You Did When You Wake by arsenicjade

[capitu]

Title: Remind You What You Did When You Wake
Author: arsenicjade
Rating: NC 17
Word Count: 22,000 Approx.
Summary: A damaged-but-not-broken Harry in the clutches of Death Eaters and a caught-up-in-circumstances Draco who's not actually evil.
Warning(s): NonCon, Sex, Torture, Violence, Character Death (not Harry or Draco)


This is such a powerful story, one of those high-impact fics that stays with you for a long time.

Harry and Ron have been captured by Death Eaters, Lucius Malfoy chief among them. They torture and violate them, both mentally and physically, and Draco, he's there too, but he's a spy, yet, he is coerced into torturing Harry, but as he does this, he opens his mind to Harry, letting Harry know how much he hates doing this, how sorry he is.

Eventually though Harry and Ron escape and defeat Voldemort, and I know I'm rushing here, and you'll have to forgive me because this 'eventually' covers Draco and Snape playing a huge part of it, with Draco actively keeping them alive during their captivity. But even after all this happened, that connection of the mind that Draco opened for Harry didn't close, and so Harry and Draco are bonding in a way, Harry has complete access to Draco's every thought.

Now, that the war is over and won, you have to remember that Harry and Draco are both very damaged and traumatised by what they did and suffered, yet, they have this link, a kinship of sorts, and are living together, trying to live past what happened.

It's not easy, it's not easy with Draco's growing feelings for Harry, which he practically shouts at Harry constantly without even meaning to, his desire, his want, and Harry's reactions to them, because part of him, a huge part of him can't forget what happened while he was a prisoner of the Death Eaters, but an even bigger part of him wants to forgive Draco, too.

It's a great story, intense and powerful, and I know it comes with some pretty strong warnings, but if you only give this story a chance, you're not going to regret it. It's pretty amazing, this fic is.

Comments

[reijamira]

Sounds interesting. I'm a bit worried about the non-con. I can read it but only when it's not very explicit and therefore the pain and humiliation aren't too palpable. Is it explicit?

[capitu]

It's not overly explicit. I mean, there aren't entire scenes devoted to the torture, and the ones that are described, most of them are more focused the feelings, like on Harry trying to be strong and brave, rather than the action, you know? Others are cut off, and Harry comes back to it afterwards, hurt. There's a lot of hurt!Harry that you're going to like.

Also, this, this part of the story, the torture and captivity, is about 1/3 of the fic. And it's not what the whole story is about. I think you'll enjoy it. :)


Ps. Also, now there's the proper summary of the story up. I had left an older rec instead. >.< Sorry!

[reijamira]

Okay, I give it a try then! Hurt!Harry, I can't resist him. :D

[capitu]

I know you can't! <33

Tell me if you enjoyed it!

[all-not-well.livejournal.com]

The summary above is from Sansa's On The Last Day Of Our World...

[capitu]

OMG. Horros!

I just fixed it. It's just that the story doesn't have a summary per se, just the prompt for which it was written and I was wondering if I should change it or find a post with a proper summary, and I didn't realise I had left an older rec's post instead.

Thank you! <33

[all-not-well.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I figured something like that. :) If you shuffle through what Arsenicjade uses as a "summary", there's this:

A damaged-but-not-broken Harry in the clutches of Death Eaters and a caught-up-in-circumstances Draco who's not actually evil.

That's what I use in my archive, anyway. :)

[capitu]

You're right! Perfect. :D I changed it, yet again. ^_^

Thank you, lovely. *hugs*

[eidheann_writes]

Oh goodness this was lovely. (And the dynamics between Harry & Draco at the end... totally push all my buttons, too. Guh hot.)

[capitu]

It is, isn't it? This is one of those stories in the eternal re-read list. I loved it, too. And yeah, I loved that part.

Also. "Get under the table and suck me off." That whole scene was all kinds of hot.

[eidheann_writes]

Yes. God yes.
*fans self*